Monday, March 19, 2007
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
I was at my son's basketball game last night when my phone rang. One of the new people in the church was admitted to the hospital and was in ICU. I immediately left the game and drove immediately to the hospital.
They have recently remodeled our hospital and getting anywhere in this huge building is tantamount to being a mouse in a maze. I got lost three times trying to find the ICU. Finally an older maintenance man directed me to the ward.
But on my way there, I noticed a lady sitting on the floor in the alcove of one of the darkened departments of the hospital. She sat there with her head buried in her knees obviously distraught. At first I wanted to stop and see if she was all right, but the immediate physical need in the ICU caused me to go in there first. I prayed and read Psalms 30 to the man there in the bed. He had a ventilator and was unable to talk, but he knew I was there and squeezed my hand as I prayed with him.
I left the ICU still feeling unfulfilled. I had to find that lady to see if she was all right or if she needed help. Somehow in that vast maze I found the lady. She was still sitting down on the floor of the alcove still, her head down on her knees. Her posture spoke of someone in deep distress.
"Excuse me," I began. "I'm sorry to disturb you. Is everything okay? I'm Pastor Jim Martin, and I couldn't help but notice that you seem very distressed."
She raised her head to look at me. I could tell that she'd been crying. She began to explain why she was here at the hospital. Her mother was in one of the beds in the ICU, and the doctors were giving her no hope. Her brothers and her sisters were in the waiting room fighting tooth and nail about funeral arrangements and who was going to get the house when her mom died.
"I couldn't take it any more," she said. "I had to get out of there before I said something terrible. The next week or so will be tough enough. I just had to get out of there and get alone with God."
I sat down on the floor across from her there in the hallway. Slowly I took out my Bible and asked if I could share a scripture that I believe the Lord placed on my heart. She nodded, and opened my Bible to Psalm 139. Let me share it with you, also.
Psalm 139
For the choir director: A psalm of David. 1 O Lord, you have examined my heart and know everything about me. 2 You know when I sit down or stand up. You know my thoughts even when I’m far away. 3 You see me when I travel and when I rest at home. You know everything I do. 4 You know what I am going to say even before I say it, Lord. 5 You go before me and follow me. You place your hand of blessing on my head. 6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too great for me to understand!
7 I can never escape from your Spirit! I can never get away from your presence! 8 If I go up to heaven, you are there; if I go down to the grave,[a] you are there. 9 If I ride the wings of the morning, if I dwell by the farthest oceans, 10 even there your hand will guide me, and your strength will support me. 11 I could ask the darkness to hide me and the light around me to become night— 12 but even in darkness I cannot hide from you. To you the night shines as bright as day. Darkness and light are the same to you.
13 You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother’s womb. 14 Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it. 15 You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb. 16 You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.
17 How precious are your thoughts about me,[b] O God. They cannot be numbered! 18 I can’t even count them; they outnumber the grains of sand! And when I wake up, you are still with me!
19 O God, if only you would destroy the wicked! Get out of my life, you murderers! 20 They blaspheme you; your enemies misuse your name. 21 O Lord, shouldn’t I hate those who hate you? Shouldn’t I despise those who oppose you? 22 Yes, I hate them with total hatred, for your enemies are my enemies.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. 24 Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life.
"Listen to how many times in that passage the phrase 'you know' is repeated," I related to her. not only that but there are other phrases that are just for you. Phrases like: you have examined, you see, and you made. All of these are examples that you are not invisible to God. Maybe you're family doesn't even know you're out of the room. But here in this corner of the hospital, God knows...where you are, how badly you're frustrated, and exactly what you need."
I stopped there and prayed a short prayer with the lady, interceding for her mother, her family, and her own need. Right after that I shook her hand and made my way back through the maze of corridors to find the front door.
I don't know what church she goes to, nor do I care.
It was enough that I didn't leave her alone. God knew exactly where she was and He was on the scene ministering to her.
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
No Excuses
I had a former student of mine stop by yesterday. He’s just gotten back from a tour of duty in Iraq. He and the United States Army seem to be a marriage made in heaven. He told me that he thought about something I’d told him while he was a student in my classroom.
"Do you remember those days when I’d drag myself into your classroom five minutes late?" he began. "You’d chew me out and I’d give you every reason for me being late. Some of those days I even had to stoop to using the truth."
I laughed as I thought about it. "Yes, I could always count on your coming in five to ten minutes late. Your excuses were always colorful and entertaining, though not always truthful."
"You chewed me out royally one day and told me that the world will not take my excuses. I’ll either make it or fail, but there are no excuses allowed. You might have thought it went in one ear and out the other, but I listened."
Now he had my full attention.
"During basic training, my DI constantly told me ‘no excuses’ when I failed to do something. I had to get up and try again until I succeeded. No excuses were acceptable."
"I take it that you found it true?" I asked leaning back in my chair.
"I learned that I will succeed or I will fail, but no one is willing to listen to or accept my excuses." He sat down at one of the classroom tables and began to talk. "Last month in Iraq I was hit by sniper fire. I took a round in my vest and it knocked the wind out of me and bruised me, but I’m alive. We could tell where the sniper fire was coming from, and we did exactly what we’d been trained to do. Working as a team, each person trusting the other one to do his job, we attacked and killed the sniper. At that point, I remembered you telling me ‘no excuses’ and my DI echoing ‘no excuses’ over and over again. If each one of us hadn’t done what we were supposed to do, it could have cost the life of another member of our team."
"Thank God you’re alive," I responded to him. Since I was off the clock by this time I decided to witness to him. "Have you thought about giving your heart and life to the Lord who preserved you over there."
He became very quiet. "I’ve thought about it. I talked to the chaplain and you know what he told me?"
"What?" I queried.
"He said that God doesn’t take excuses either; He just extends mercy."
"Have you received that mercy yet?" I asked. I was ready to pray with him right there.
He rose, obviously not wanting to pray just yet. "I’m thinking about it. I guess you’re going to tell me that the chaplain was right. God doesn’t take excuses."
"No, He doesn’t," I said with a smile on my face and shaking the young soldier’s hand. "He’ll give mercy, forgiveness, and a second chance, but He doesn’t take excuses. Don’t wait or think about this too long."
I invited him to church Sunday and I hope he’ll be there.
"What’s next for you?" I asked him as he was leaving.
He laughed and said, "I’m going to Alaska for survival training. Then I’m going to get married."
As he walked away, I couldn’t resist shouting up the hallway, "Wives don’t take excuses either!"
Pray for this young soldier.
Monday, December 04, 2006
On my way across town this morning, I hit the scan button on my radio, and soon a Garth Brooks tune filled my car. (I’m a Garth fan; sue me.) But this one always caught my attention. While I absolutely detest it when someone refers to God as "the man upstairs," there is still enough truth in this song to cause me to think. Here are the words to the chorus:
Sometimes I thank God for unanswered prayers
Remember when you're talkin' to the man upstairs
That just because he doesn't answer doesn't mean he don't care
Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers
It was then that I realized that the prayers that he was singing about were requests that simply were not the best for him. God answered; He said, "No." I look at my fifteen going on twenty son and think about his requests. We drive down the highway and he sees Mustang convertibles, a shiny red Corvette, or a crotch rocket (That’s a motorcycle for those unfamiliar with biker terms.) that goes at least sixty miles over any sane speed limit. I pat my pockets for the thousands of dollars that would be necessary to give him what he desires, smile, and say, "No way," in my practiced fatherly tone.
I will be fifty years old in two more days. In fifty years of living I have prayed many prayers. Some God has responded to with a hearty "yes." I asked Him to come into my heart, take my life, and let me live in His grace and forgiveness. He did this and continues to answer that prayer.
There have been prayers that were not definite "no’s" but He answered with "Wait until the timing is right." Those are tough, because I’m not a patient man by nature. Many times if the line at the K-mart was too long, I’ve made the decision that I can live without what I desire to purchase and leave without it. But some things have been worth the wait. My wife and I were married for fifteen years before we had a child. He was worth the wait, and I see God’s wisdom it the wait. I was a better father at thirty-five than I would have been at nineteen.
The toughest answers have been God’s "no’s." I knew what I wanted, I prayed with faith believing, and waiting in expectation to receive what was requested. But my prayer was answered with a resounding ‘No." There was no debate, no compromise, and no amount of wheedling and whining was going to change His mind.
Who does he think He is? God?
That’s exactly who He is. The sooner I realize it, the sooner I can be comfortable with His "no’s." He knows what’s over the hill, around the curve, and on the other side of that bank of fog. He sees with a perspective that I just don’t possess.
I still struggle once in a while when He loves me enough to tell me, "No." But I’m getting better. Maybe at fifty years of age I’m growing up.
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Winter Storm Watch
I just checked the weather forecast on the internet and they are predicting a Winter Storm Watch for our area for tomorrow evening. I read it the first time through teeth that were gritted tightly together. "Why does nasty weather always have to come in on nights when we have church?" I mutter. But then I calm down, get spiritual, and say, "Thy will be done." (I really try to mean it whenever it comes to bad weather, but you just can't fool the Lord.)
But I know what will be happening today and tomorrow. The Christmas shoppers already crowding the local Walmart will be competing with people who are desperate to prepare for this storm watch. Shopping carts will be filled with batteries, bottled water, foodstuffs, and candles. Gas stations will be filled with people topping up their tanks and getting kerosene for their heaters.
All of this is happening because we "might" get freezing rain.
But we are facing something that we "know" is going to happen. Christ will be coming for His bride, yet people are not making preparations. Churches often continue business as usual with no real sense of urgency about the spreading of the Gospel. People come and go, yet they are not being reached.
Do we really believe in the imminent return of Christ?
How does it effect us?
How does it effect our church?
I'm ready for a winter storm watch. I always keep batteries, a supply of water, kerosene, and a spare propane tank in storage. Now if I can just instill that same expectation in my church.
Troublesome times are here, filling mens hearts with fear,
Chorus
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Thursday, November 02, 2006
We would meet for coffee, fish, and debate scripture with one another. He'd declare to me that I'm eternally and unconditionally secure while I was telling him that the baptism of the Holy Ghost would make him a better Baptist.
Tom and I even dieted together. We did our best to monitor the intake of our food. We'd have contests to see who could loose the most and even bet Sunday dinner on who had lost the most. He accused me of cheating one week when God placed a fast upon my heart. I told him to take it up with God and pay up.
As we sat in the booth at Country Kitchen that we dubbed "Clergy Parking" our eyes eventually turned to the pastry case. There, revolving in a seductively regular interval, were always huge slices of devil's food (appropriately named) cake. As the night went on, we'd both end up giving into our weakness and ordering a slice for each of us.
We sat in silence devouring our cake. Some things you just don't cheapen by talking. But eventually one of us would look up at the other in guilt, knowing that we'd blown our diet for that day.
Tom and I both are Star Trek fans. The quote made my Mr. Spock as he is speaking to the man who desires his intended wife came to our mind. "Wanting a thing is not the same as having a thing. It is not logical, but it is often true."
The cake was never as good as the thought it would be.
It's that way with temptation. Sin is never as good as you thought it would be. Do you doubt it? Ask the man/woman foolish enough to be unfaithful to their spouse. With the pain and agony they went through, coupled with the divorced, was it worth it? Was it as good as you thought it would be?
Ask the individual who struggles daily with various addictions. Is the buzz worth the agony that it's brought to their life?
It never is.
Next time I see the cake, I won't even look at it. I'll just walk away.
It's never as good as it promises to be.